Failing down

For the pass few weeks, there are tremendous things that happens around me. First of all, economy is bad, really bad (not only to me apperently). Things that involve in finances started to get stress up. My plan with Sharon initially was to have our wedding on 4th July 09. So, after confirming all things and getting headcount from all my friends, suddently, there's this bad news that comes around about my finances support from parents. So, Sharon was pretty angry at that time as we planned on alot of things based on our current finance. So, she got angry because of
1) We are getting second property (based on our ability and without having to spend money on wedding)
2) Economy is getting bad and we have to plan the worst scenerio on i'm jobless
3) More events are coming in church like Oceania Convention 09 which is held in Melbourne, Working Adult Getaway, Unit Getaway. (Estimate total spending on these 3 event = AUD1000 + AUD500 + AUD200 = AUD1700)

So things started to get worst in our finances that we planned to drop out the OC'09 which I always wanted to go. But because of extra expences coming on with the wedding which might cost around 5kAUD, we need to start saving.

Few weeks before this things happens, I was searching for job, desperately. Owen and Eric got sent out and left me alone in Dialog House. I was really in bad mood whole week thinking of that. I was interviewed by TAFE on AP position, then I got called again from EMC2 to another AP position. Both has turn me down. I prayed and prayed, day and night, 24/7. But things just doens't go as planned. As the result of that, I took 3 days leaves to start thinking and overcome my problem. Sharon was with me all the time. I was so dissapointed and started to question on God's existance.

Why would bad things happen, it is all planned by HIM? or it just happen? Is there GOD? Or God is just another way of human try to blame the cause of whatever happens in their life? Or God is just another 'thing' that human put all the responsibility to rather than facing them?

One thing I discovered, human's nature are weird, especially when talking about responsibility. There are few groups of people which I can categorise on

1) God exist, whenever bad things happens. This group of people tend to 'blame' or put the cause of bad situation onto HIM keep thinking of it's just a test or lession His giving us and eventually all will be good.

2) God exits - Good/Bad situation is all about HIM

3) God doesn't exist at all. All things happens because of human's work.

So it's not just God exist or not, religion has been a way of life in human mind and part of our life. No matter christianity, buddism, or islam, All these teaching had in fact stored in our mind since young from either parents, or society, or friends. It is part of our life to say that, "Oh, there someone more superior up there that make all these thing happen". But there are also groups of freethinker that get out of this 'controlled' situation whereby everything that ever happens are because of men.

All these things came through my mind during that period of time. I am quite a logically thinker and due to human nature, "We believe in what we can see", I started to lost my track and faith towards what I depends on all these years. I was once told putting our plan on Him, and He will make it succeed. But isn't this contridicting to each other? First of all, He planned the whole thing. If it's already planned, then why we need to plan again and commit to HIM? Isn't planned already suppost to happen? What's the point of us planning when it's already been planned. After all these things that happened, I told myself that I won't go into deep planning anymore. I mean, what's the point if you planned everything, spend lots of time thinking of this and that but finally He says "NO".

Eventually, I carried these questions with me to worship night in UQ. And in that night, I was really carried away by the worship team and songs. Its like going to club and start dancing to lose your ownself. I was beginning to shout out loud on all the lyrics and song. And finally, I lost my voice. But 1 thing I realised that night, the excitement I encounter, the way I acted during the worship, it's all about HIM. Although until now, to be honest, I still have the same question in my heart "Is there GOD?", but often, I was carried aways by the acts He did to show me that He really exist.

After all these, still, I don't planned as much as I was before, but one thing that I was, and will believe in, is that He is looking at us.

天將降大任於斯人也，必先苦其心志，勞其筋骨，餓其體膚，空乏其身，行拂亂其所為，所以動心忍性，增益其所不能

Live Life to its fullnest

From divineverses.com
There Is Only One Life To Live - Enjoy It To The Fullest!

I was watching the “Crocodile Hunter”, Steve Irwin on T.V, in that episode, he was on a wonderful yacht cruise over the Indian Ocean, with his family - wife Terry and little daughter Bindi. What a life he was having, I was just thrilled and excited as he was seeing the cruise over the beautiful vast ocean, and then they showed him flying over the scenic locations and visiting the most beautiful places on earth. What a life, really a life filled with enthusiasm and excitement. My thoughts are that, even though Steve died in a tragic accident, he has accomplished everything in his life and enjoyed every minute of his God given life.

It was at the moment when i stopped and though about my own life. What do i have in my life, worth remembering? What do i have in my life, which i can call an accomplishment? Am I enjoying my life?

The answer is a No… Not at all… We are missing the excitement and the joy of life, when chasing down material goals like money and fame. Stop and think for a moment, If you happen to die today, what do you think, you have gained for your own, in your God Given LIfe? Think for a moment, have you gained anything in life, which your soul can be really satisfied about? Nothing yet, right?

We are loosing the excitement in our life. Everyone of us are born in this universe with a spirit, an excitement towards life. Look at children, look how happy they are, they naturally ahev an excitement towards life. I can bet that everyone would want to be back in their childhood days again. Why, because they were so excited and life was so wonderful then. I still remember, how excited i was everyday, in my childhood days, everyday it was great, eventhough there wasn’t anything special. I felt everyday was so good, i was so happy when i wake up from bed every morning.

But now where is all that joy and excitement? Where are those mornings when we used to wake up with joy, expecting something good ? Where is the God given spirit, that you had when you were a child ? It’s all gone… As we grow older and face the polluted world, our spirits slowly and gradually die, without we ever realizing it. When we get older and start our run towards money and fame, it’s nowhere to be found. Sometimes people start to feel it’s no use living this hectic life.

Friends, we need to regain our God given spirit which we lost on our misleading jorney of life. Your life is something that needs to be treasured, that needs to be enjoyed each and every moment. Your life is a gift from God. Live it the fullest, that’s what pleases our creator, The Almighty God.

Life is not worth dragging around down and defeated, nor is it worth chasing down dreams, money or fame. You can’t have any of them without the spirit, which gives you the enthusiasm and excitement in life. Regain it, and you will regain your life. Live your life joyfully, that’s what we are created for and that’s what pleases our God. If you do it, you won’t ever have to chase down your dreams, The blessings of our Almight God will chase you down and will fill you with abundance.

And this is well put in John 10: 10 which says - Jesus Came So That We May Have An Abundant Life.

One translation says - I have come in order that you might have life - Life In All Its Fullness.

I can only imagine

"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ..."

The atheist professor of philosophy paused before his class and then asked one of his new students to stand. "You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"

"Yes, sir," the young man answered.

"So you believe in God?"

"Absolutely."

"Is God good?"

"Sure? God is good," he said, nervously.

"Is God all powerful? Can God do anything?" the teacher continued.

"Of course He is, He is God."

"Are you good or evil?"

"The Bible says I'm evil" he shuffled.

The professor grinned knowingly. "Ahh! THE BIBLE!" He contemplated for a moment and began again, "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help them? Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good, not evil!"

"I wouldn't say that," the student objected.

"Why not say that? You would help a sick and maimed person if you could... in fact most of us would if we could...but God doesn't." (No answer from the young student). "He doesn't does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmmm? Can you answer that one please?" (Still no answer.)

The elderly man sympathetically answers his own question as he takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax "No, you can't, can you?"
The professor continued his well conceived discourse, "In philosophy, you have to go easy with the new ones. So, let's start again, young fella. Is God good?" By now, the young man was shamefully on the defensive,

"Err... Yes."

"Is Satan good?"

"No!" He protested.

"Where does Satan come from?"

The student falters. "Uhh, from... God..."

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he?" The elderly man proceeded. Running his bony fingers through his thinning hair, he turned to the rest of the smirking student audience. "I think we're going to have a good semester, ladies and gentlemen." He turned back to the Christian. "Tell me son. Is there any evil in this world?"

"Yes, sir."

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? Did God make everything?" Reluctantly the student responded, "Yes."

"Who created evil?" (No answer) "Is there sickness in this world? Ugliness, immorality, hatred? All the terrible things - do they exist in this world?"

"Yes." the student squirmed.

"Who created them?" (No answer.) The professor suddenly shouted at the student. "WHO CREATED THEM? TELL ME, PLEASE!" The professor closing in for the kill, climbs into the young Christian's face. In a still small voice: "God created them, didn't he?" (Again, No answer.)

The student tried to hold his steady experienced gaze, but failed. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace the front of the classroom like an aging panther. The class is now mesmerized. "Tell me," he continued, "how is it that this God is good if He created all evil throughout all time?" To dramatize his point, the professor, sweeps his arms around to encompass the wickedness of the world. He presses more forcefully, "All the hatred, the brutality, all the pain, all the torture, all the death and ugliness and suffering created by this good God is all over the world, isn't it, young man?" (No answer.)

"Don't you see it all over the place? Huh?" There's a pause.

"Don't you?" The professor leans into the students face again and whispers, "Is God good?" Defeated, the student has no answer. "Do you believe in Jesus Christ, young man?" The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, Professor, I do."

Almost in disgust, the old man shakes his head. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you seen Jesus?"

"No, sir, I've never seen Him."

"Then tell us, have you ever heard your Jesus?"

"No, sir, I have not."

"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus... in fact, do you have any sensory perception of your God whatsoever?" (Silence) "Answer me, please!"

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"You're AFRAID you haven't?"

"No, sir."

"Yet you still believe in Him?"

"Yes"

"Now that takes FAITH!" The professor smiles sagely at the underling as he begins his final summation. "According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God does not exist. What do you say to that, son? Where is your God now?"
The student has no answer.

"Sit down, please." The Christian sat down... defeated, ashamed and humiliated.
Within just a few moments, another student raised his hand.
"Professor, may I address the class?"

Proud of his effective rendering of his logical and scientific discertation, the professor turned and smiled. "Ah, another Christian in the vanguard! Come, come, young man. Speak some proper wisdom to the gathering."

This second Christian looked around the room to speak to the whole group. "Some interesting points you are making, sir. Now I've got a few questions for you. Is there such a thing as heat?"

"Yes," the professor replied, "there's heat."

"Is there such a thing as cold?"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No, sir, there isn't," he objected

The professor's grin instantly froze as the room suddenly went very quiet. The second Christian continues. "You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, white heat, a little heat, or no heat, but we don't have another thing called 'cold.' We can hit 485 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we cannot go any further than that. There is no such thing as cold, otherwise we would be able to go colder than negative 485‹ you see, sir, cold, is only a word we use to describe the total absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. But cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, it's just the absence of it."

Silence. A pin drops somewhere in the classroom, then the student continued, "Is there such a thing as darkness, professor?"

"That's a dumb question, son. What is night if it isn't darkness? What are you getting at?"

"So you 'believe' there is darkness?"

"Yes."

"I'm sorry, but science says you're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? That's the word we use to define the meaning of nothingness. In reality, darkness isn't anything. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker and place it in a jar. But you can't give me a jar of darker darkness, can you Professor?"

Despite himself the professor smiles at the youth's affrontery before him and thinks to himself, 'this would indeed be a good semester.' "Would you mind telling us what your point is, young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed at the very start, and so your conclusion must also be in error..."

Hearing this the professor goes toxic. "Flawed? How dare you!"

"Sir, may I explain what I mean?" Now the class began to rumble as they waited in anticipation of the students next words.

"Explain... oh, explain." The professor made an admirable but fialing effort to regain control... Suddenly he is affability itself as he waved his hand to silence the class, for the student to continue.

"You are working on the premise of duality," the Christian explains, "that, for example, there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad god. You are viewing God as a concept, as something finite... something we can measure. Sir, science cannot even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood them. To view death, as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a stative thing. Death is not the opposite of life, merely the absence of it."

The young man held up a newspaper from the desk of a neighbour, who has been reading it. "Here is one of the most disgusting tabloids this country hosts, Professor. Is there such a thing as immorality?"

"Of course, there is, now look..." the professor protested. Politely interupting the professor, the student raised his finger into the air and continued, "Again, I'm sorry sir, but you are wrong. You see, immorality is merely the absence of morality. Is there such a thing as injustice? No, injustice is the absence of justice. Is there such a thing as evil?" The Christian paused. "Isn't evil the absence of good?"

Now the professor's face has turned an alarming shade of red. He is so angry, he is temporarily speechless.But the young Christian continued. "If there is evil in the world, Professor, and we all agree there is, then God, if He exists, must be accomplishing a work through the agency of evil. What is that work God is accomplishing?"

"The Bible tells us that it is to see if each one of us will, of our own free will, choose good (the result of the love of God) over evil (the result of independence or the absence of the love of God). There is nothing greater than love. God is love and God is good. If He is good, than the innate act of His goodness would be to give man the opportunity to experience the greatest thing that exists‹love. But love cannot be forced on someone or it is not love.

There must be a choice involved. God loved us enough to allow us to make the choice. Evil is the result of the choice of independence from God."

The professor bridled. "As a philosophical scientist, I don't view this matter as having anything to do with choice; as a realist, I absolutely do not recognise the concept of God or any other theological factor as being part of the world equation because God is not observable."

"But sir, I would have thought that the absence of God's moral code in this world is probably one of the most observable phenomena going," the Christian replied. "Newspapers make billions of dollars reporting it every week. Tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"

"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process young man, yes, of course I do."

"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir, or are you placing your 'faith' in the unobservable?" The professor made a sucking noise with his teeth and gave the student a silent, stony stare. "Professor, since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an ongoing endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a priest?"

"I'll overlook your impudence in the light of our philosophical discussion. Now have you quite finished?" the professor hissed.

Maintaining his polite demeanor, he student replied: "May I follow up on the point you were making earlier to the other student?"

The professor wisely remained silent.

"I believe you have a great mind Professor, but with all due respect let me ask the class a question regarding it. Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's mind... felt the professor's mind, touched or smelled the professor's mind?" The class traded glances with quiet grins.

"No one appears to have done so. No one here has had any sensory perception of the professor's mind whatsoever. While I would not dare to imply it myself... wouldn't the limitations of what you 'believe in' (the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science) say that you have no mind? And wouldn't the same apply to your emotions and your will? I believe your great mind is hidden within your brain although I cannot observe it within the small box, or within the limited parameters with which you wish to place God".

If I want to know your mind, that is, if I want to know the real you (your mind, emotions, will and even your spirit), all I have to do, if you are willing to be known, is be willing to seek to know you and to spend time with you. You can know that God exists... if you are willing... Are you willing, Professor?"

(Silence.)

In the midst of the quiet, the bell rang.
"Class dismissed," announced the professor. "Time is up!"

Types of Christianity

Liberal
A liberal Christian will tend to be quite accepting of the fact that other people have different faiths. Liberal Christians may see various bits of the bible entirely allegorical/symbolic and other bits more historical/literal. Some Liberal Christians will see the Bible as entirely symbolic. Liberal is seen as the opposite to Conservative, a Church cannot really be both.

Pluralist
Pluralist Christians say that everybody that has faith in a divine entity will receive salvation/entry in to heaven. This is often seen as a sub-belief of Liberal Christians.

Universalist
Universalist Christians say that everybody will receive salvation/entry into heaven. This is often seen as a belief of Liberal Christians.

Conservative
A Conservative Christian will say that the only way to God is through faith in Jesus Christ, and can only happen if you are born again (i.e. baptised and fully acknowledge the presence of God and His gifts in this world). Conservative Christians also tend to understand the Bible as entirely literal, historic and factual. Conservative is seen as the opposite to Literal, a Church cannot really be both.

Evangelical
An Evangelical Church puts emphasis on “mission”. This “mission” is one to let everybody know about the works of Jesus Christ and His apostles. This sometimes goes hand in hand with Conservative Christianity to form Fundamentalist Christianity.

Charismatic
A Charismatic Church puts emphasis on the spiritual gifts provided by God to Humans. Examples of these gifts include Speaking in Tongues (aka glossolalia) and spiritual healing. Charismatic Churches tend to be very energetic and say that the spiritual gifts are visible.

Catholic
Catholic means universal, and is usually understood by a shared set of rituals. Catholic Churches will tend to be Eucharistic in nature, in other words the breaking of bread and drinking of wine will be done at least once a week. There is a set order of rituals during services, weeks and years. Catholic Churches also tend to honour the Saints, have a hierarchy of Church organisation and have more than the central two Sacraments (Baptism and Communion).

Trinitarian
A Trinitarian believes that God/Divine is whole, but made up of three parts: The Father, the Son (aka Jesus Christ) and the Holy Spirit (aka Holy Ghost). This is to say that Jesus Christ was part of a whole God, and as is the Holy Spirit. A Trinitarian may believe that Jesus Christ was physical form of the Holy Spirit. This is seen as the opposite of Unitarian.

Unitarian
A Unitarian believes that God/Divine is distinct from Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. This is seen as the opposite of Trinitarian. Inclusive An Inclusive Church (or Christian) is inclusive if it (or he/she) accepts: Female ordination (and to be part of the clergy) Allows anyone into their service no matter what their race, gender, age or sexual orientation.

Mystic
A Mystic Christian is one who tries to experience God, this is usually done using thought, meditation and understanding philosophy, ones self and the world. This is done usually because a belief that there is a spark of divine (aka Inner Light) in each and every one of us, and its possible to get to know it. Mystic Christianity tends to be quite a personal voyage, and you don’t really tend to find Mystic Churches (although the closest are probably the members of the Religious Society of Friends (aka Quakers)).

Contemplative
This type usually goes hand in hand with Catholic Christianity. Contemplative Christianity emphasises the use of quiet meditation and prayer, this may include the use of Rosaries (aka Prayer Beads) or Prayer Ropes.

Down..

I'm feeling really down yesterday. I had this feeling ever since convention where tiredness and down/heavy mood within me. I don't know what was happening until during life group, our leader share about spiritual unbalance in the convention center where she and another leader felt down and heavy during the convention. Rumours about the venue had some spiritual attack before and there is a church in the venue which looks like old western building.

Surprisingly I didn't have any "down" mood until after the convention -> Yesterday. I woke up early 6:00am. Feeling totally useless and lazy, after taking my normal shower, I'm really really down. Suddently I felt there's no meaning at all in my life, I felt empty in my heart, don't know what to do, don't know where to go. Life suddently meaningless. I walk into my room and told my wife. She asked me to take leave. I changed back to my pyjamas and went online. I told my shepherd about this and at the same time I keep praying praying asking God to lead once again in my life. Things doesn't get any better until night time. We went and bought few christian book and been reading it that night for whole night.

God, I pray, please let your holy spirit come and refresh me. I welcome with open heart and soul for holy spirit to fill me up and show me the purpose of life. May your holy spirit guide me through my life before I'm united with You. Father I pray, that with Jesus name, cast out all demonic spirit that is troubling me and my wife, shield us and our house from all evil spirit. Protect us Father with anything that will harm us. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Appreciate people around you

My grandma just pass away this morning Malaysia time. My dad just called me after I went shopping with Sharon in indooropilly. I was really sad at first after hearing the news. The first picture that came through my mind was all the time when my grandma talk to me. Her smile, the way she called me everytime, ah loon, ah loon. Thinking back now, I'm was really rude to her sometimes by ignoring her chat with me. My grandma will always in my heart. She is a great women that carried on burden of 8 sons and 3 daugther. She is really a great grandma that taking care of her children well by saving alot. Imagine of all the spending for more than 10 people in the family. When I was young, my father will bring us back to grandma's house in east penang weekly. Everytime I sees her during breakfast, lunch or dinner, she will always eat on same thing, canned fish with black bean and white rice, thats all. And she pass away now aging 90+.

My grandma has been working hard and suffering in most of her lifetime. She and my grandpa both came from china. And I really missed her alot now even though I hardly chat with her since I came to Australia. Things happen so unexpectedly. We will never know what will happen next minute in our life. Life really precious, but people around you are most precious. They are there not by coincidence, not by chances. They are placed around you for a purpose. And sometime we ignore it until that very person leaves us, then only we realise how important is it that person for us.

At my young age, I always think of when I've grown up, I will repay and honour my elders and people who take care of me. But one by one, they left their earthly life. My eldest aunty and uncle, who took care of me since I'm few months old, and now my grandma, who is one of the elder I respect the most. Time passes very fast, and it doesn't stop to wait for you.

Father Lord, I pray for my loved ones, for my elderly who had left, may You forgive them Father. I know those who didn't declare You as Lord their God will have no space in heaven, but I sincerely pray Father, for they didn't choose not to believe in You, but they doesn't have the change to knowing Gospel. Father, I pray for them, I ask for Your forgiveness on their sins, just as Jesus forgive us. Give them a chance to know You Lord God, as it is one of Your desire to get Your people, Your creation close to You. Father, please forgive them, let them know more about You. Accept them Father into Your wonderful kingdom. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Communion Prayer

Communion is the time where we remember Jesus came down to earth from His throne to die for us. But Jesus not only die for us, but also suffer for us. As I preparing what to share, I got this vision where there's this criminal that was sentenced to death penalty. On that itself, he told the officer gunner "Please aim at my heart, I want to die instantly without pain". (For those who don't know, shot at stomach suffer the most cause it takes the longest to die).

When Jesus came down to earth, He knew that He is gonna die for us. But not just that, He even have to suffer for us. Imagine you know you gonna die with suffering over hours and hours. The blade slash, the pain, the sacrifice, the determination to complete God's will. Will you have the courage, the perseverance, the determination to complete it? None of us will. None of us will understand the pain Jesus had to gone through.

Brother and sister, let us have the rememberence of Jesus in deeper way, not only to remember He was once came down to earth and die, but also suffering, tremendous sufferring that beyond our human understanding in order to save us, free us, to get us close to God.

"Father Lord, thank you for everything that You have provide us. Thank you for sending Jesus down to save us, to have us closer to You. Father, we will never ever understand the pain and suffering that Jesus had gone through. Lord, we acknowledge the great work that Jesus had done for us, and we will always follow Your teaching, Your will. And we will each day try to get closer to You, to understand more of Your words. Thank you Father Lord once again for all the great love that You have showed us all through Jesus. Thank you. In Jesus name we pray, AMEN!"

Oceanie Convention 2008

Oceania convention 2008

I'm really glad i attended this year's convention because me and sharon were struggling on whether we should attend this year or not.(Money is always an issue). 180AUD with no accommodation is no fun, at least thats what we thought as previous year all convention is held like camp style.

3 days 3 nights of praise and worship is really great, but tiring. I woke up 6:00am in the morning just because of excitement and can't wait to go there. The enviroment is so different and so encouraging. Somehow I find myself more open in worshipping GOD when there's more ppl compare to just normal Sunday service. Maybe because of my shyness and inner personality. We get to know more people in our life group especially NeeKee and Stephenie. Surprisingly, I'm able to chat more than I usually do. Still I prefer to be transperent. We are getting older day by day, whether you like it or not but if we remain youthful heart inside us, no matter how old we get, we still can be young inside. And believe me, being young inside is hard.

During the convention, I learnt alot of stuff. What is the purpose of us living now? Are we to remain what we are today until the end? Or are we to be lived a significant life? Are we to be someone different from what we are today? Life is really boring, YES! BORING! You woke up in the morning, go to work, come back at 6pm. Dinner, hang out then sleep. Thats the life. Sometimes I really admire those who persuade their dreams, their hobbies, their interest. So, brothers and sisters, START CHANGING YOURSELF TODAY! Be somebody, don't be nobody. If you lived significantly, you will have no regrets at all if you were to die now. You will say nothing about regret on what you missed out, what you still want to do, what you didn't do during your life time. We only have 1 life, 1 short life, and you will never know when is the end. Appreciate what you have around you. And treasure every minutes that is passing by. Time never waits or stops.

I missed my parents alot. I missed all my friends in KL, Penang, Singapore. Life really hard, at one point you need to appreciated what you have around you, at another point, you are bound to what sociaty are builds on now and what you need to survive, which is MONEY! I guess there's always no balance among these 2.

On the 2nd last day in convention, I have these vision on CDS ministry that grows internationally in years to come. Education is part of growing, even when we are young, we start our life with education. Learning never stops. I really pray that I'm able to contribute in this area. I really pray that I'm able to extend my knowledge in this ministry. But let it all up to GOD. Thank GOD for all these.


Btw, I met with some of my old friends from Hope Waverly Melb, Weng Kong, Olivia and Yuki and I'm really glad they still remember me. Next year's convention will be in Philip Island with much more fun, and cost more too. So, LET START SAVING MONEY NOW!

Something nice

Hillsongs - One Desire
You gave it all for me
My soul desire, my everything
And all I am is devoted to You

How could I fail to see
You are the love that rescued me
And all I am is devoted to You

And oh, how could I not be moved
Lord here with You
So have Your way in me
Cause Lord, there is just one thing
That I will seek

This is my cry
My one desire
Is to be where You are, Lord
Now and forever
It's more than a song
My one desire
Is to be with You
Is to be with You, Jesus

Time flies....

Man, it's been long time since I logged into blogspot and type something. Life has been harsh on me. Working life isn't that good as you think during study. For those who are studying, Enjoy while you can.
Ok, think of what has happened for the past few years.
2006-2007:
Been busy working in restaurant almost everyday.
Got legally married to Sharon in 2008. in fact, yesterday was our first anniversary. Nothing much just have dinner outside. Been spending too much money.

Mid 2007 - Tai Uei came to Australia. Went to visit him in Sydney. The first holiday for me after I graduated from Uni. After that got fired by my restaurant Boss. Really hate it, you know, it feels better if you resigned youself than being fired by your boss. He was one step ahead of me. Can't do anything. Since I'm graduated, I just accept it and start looking for job, FAST!!!. Money is an issue, BIG issue. Send out hundreds on resume, but only got 4 reply. Lucky for me, I worked as I.T consultant now in Dialog I.T. Title sounds nice, but just a normal AP. Its something like big I.T agency where sends us out as contractor. Not too bad, get new environment every now and then. Now life is abit better, at least got more free time. 40 hours of work per week aint that bad.

2008 - Bought an unit, building price here is booming like rocket, and a car, Yaris 1.3. Consider enough for the time being. No more money. All my saving gone to the house and car. Now, return back to church. So life now is pretty routined. Monday - Friday working. At night, if I have too much money, then we will have dinner outside, else stay at home and cook. Friday night normally go to life group(care group) but the location is shifting furthur and furthur away to south side(im stayin at north side) and petrol is getting more expensive than ever before. So "sometimes" i missed..lol. Saturday basically shopping for grocery and cleaning up my house. Sunday mainly spend whole day at church and simple dinner. That is all for 1 whole week. So it's BORING!

Then last 3 weeks, I just got a puppy, for AUD500. In Malaysia there are free dogs everywhere, but here 500. Thats stupid, but I bought it anyway for the sake of getting off my boredom. His a mini foxie (Miniature Fox Terrier). I named him Bailey(my favourite drinks). Highly active and stupid. First day pee and poo everywhere at home, after few day he does have place to pee now, but for poo, man, still everywhere. Lose my temper sometimes and scold him. Other than that, his quite a nice dog. Now i got extra agenda in my routine, cleaning pee and poo everytime I got back from work. Now everday his "guarding" my house for me, provided his quite a coward dog, keep hiding everytime he sees stranger.

For pass few days, I've been reading my old friends blog, and really, many things has happening around them while I'm alone here in Australia. I do really miss them, and miss my hometown, miss everything in malaysia. Especially the time in KL, I do miss my college life, life had to goes on even you don't want it to. I don't know when will I see all my friend but it will be alot different next time I see them. Now planning to go back during christmas or chinese new year but not confirm yet.

Ok, now back to work. Ciao. Take care.

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Hello to new World and new ME!

Ok, I'm "working" now, not to say working because I got nothing to do in the office, waiting to be relocated. im working in the sense that I got pay even though I'm not doing anything. Good eh? This is the I.T industry in Australia. So, now I'm working in Dialog, Australian own I.T company which deals with lots of other company. So now I might relocated to Mincom or CITEC. But non are confirm yet. So everyday I read people's blog, read all programming materials and etc. So this came across me, this blog of mine which has been isolated for.. forgot how long.

Well, lots to update from me, but since I lazy to type, I will only update those important stuff. There's one interesting story, for those who knows me, I have been working in a Vietnamese Restaurant during my studies in Uni, so it's has been 2 years. I got sick of working there actually and was thinking of getting IT job asap. So i sent like 50 application per day and non reply. Since nothing happens, I took 1 week leave from the restaurant and went to Sydney to meet up with my college friend, Tai Uei. Walk around in the city and china town. Nothing much really. After I went back to Brisbane, the owner of the restaurant called me and FIRED me....LOL. Got really mad at first but he is boss, what can I do. So after that, I decided to go back malaysia for 10 days since I got nothing to do here and my non of my job application reply me. After 10days in Penang, wow. back to bris and CTechnology called me. Straight away i signed contract with them and the funny part is, Dialog and Hatch called me that week. So I officially work in CTech for 1 week then I moved to Dialog which has better offering.

And now i'm waiting for client and type this nonsense since i got nothing to do. AHAHAHHH..funny. contact with some of my primary school mates, all in IT field now. And missing my life in KL. Well, life must go on as I always said. going to gold coast with friends over the weekends. So take care and thanks for those who reads this blog. LOL..

Im back!!!!

ahahahah...theres so much to write for almost 5 months now since the last update. Nothing special actually accept for christmas, new year and chinese new year that i went through. Well, christmas was quite good in brisbane cause i went to Gold Coast with my boss (tony) and his family. Underwater world, BBQ by the beach and having fun in the apartment was quite a fun holiday for me. Maybe this is the first holiday i had since i came to brisbane. But holiday always make a person hate working again especially when u think of working tomorrow during the last day of the holiday.

New year was nothing special here, fire works ..bla bla bla.. and i have to work on that day itself. so nothing much to talk about.. but hey... double pay on public holiday!!hahahahaha
Chinese new year was the bomb of the year!!! almost 7days of busy day and night in the restaurant and guess what.. i have to work on all the 7 days. Blardy hell.. missed all the red packet in malaysia but luckily my boss and nancy gave me.. and its more than i can get in malaysia..ahahahahaha.. Tiring like shits..

Now.. 2006 first sem starts already.. HAVE TO WORK HARD THIS YEAR!!!! hopefully everything goes well and as planned. planning to go back to malaysia for a short holiday next year.. must go pangkor and redang... AAHAHAHAA... man..imagination is good.. thank god..ahahaahah

now?? hmmm..nothing much happening in my life.. boring life in brisbane.. work work work.. have to start to do some exercise soon.. must stay fit and healthy.. Eating protein is good.. build muscles.. hmmm... but not too big size...

KKK....stop here now,... msn me anyone who reads this,... im BORED!!!!

WELCOME BACK!!!!!

IM BACK!!!!!!!! hahahaahhahahaaa
well, after being away for months, finally im back..hahaha..well spending christmas, new year and chinese new year here are not as fun as spending in malaysia. But at least i get to do something different rather than staying at home for the celebration. I celebrate my christmas this year in Gold Coast with Tony's ( my boss ) family having BBQ event by the beach. Well, everything is fun, we went to Underwater World for the first day and spending 2nd day BBQ by the beach. The potong stim part was I need to get back to work next day after my 3 days holidays.

New Year was nothing special in brisbane except for the fire works which malaysia has also and I am working on that day itself..ahahahah double pay man.. who doesnt want to work. After this was the chinese new year!!!..wow that was the bomb. The restaurant was FULL almost 7 whole days. And guess what, im on duty on all that 7 days. And i missed all my red packet from malaysia, but the fews that i've got from my Tony and Nancy was enough to covered all the amount..lol

Summer now

Hm.m..theres so much to blog and do. But im lazy, human are intent to be lazy when they are working....hahaah.. at least i am. After busy day of working on friday and saturday, sunday has become my day of relaxation where i can sleep and do anything i want at home. Although i had planned before like doing homework and working on project on myself, still on that day itself, i just can't follow that schedule. Maybe too tired on everything now especially working.

My result has been dropping since first semester and mostly i think its my fault. Doing nothing everyday and playing games while im free has become my habit during free day. Now i understand how hard to earn money and yet no time to spend it. My friend told me life isnt just working, we need to Work HARD and PLAY HARD..hmmm.. but i got no time..lol. Guess i have to wait until i graduate and start working on 5 days basis, then only i have my own time to do my stuff.

Well, really tired today, cant have a decent nice peaceful day as early in the morning the stupid indian neighbour been arguing and their son or daughter has been crying to loud that whole unit can actually hear them. Policemen came in the afternoon to stop the arguement, but they just cant stop and they are now arguing again. The husband somehow hit the wife i guess. He is SO STUPID i would say doing that in Australia cause the government really concernt all cases on violent against women.

Ok, they stopped now, maybe they realise keep fighting doesnt come to an conclusion. AAHAAAH.. and another thing, im waiting for harry potter movie.. yeah.. ahahha.. but its late compare with other country, have to wait until next week or so.. ok..gtg now.. ciaoz

Funny passage

About a century or two ago, the Pope decided that all the Chinese had to leave Italy. Naturally there was a big uproar from the Chinese community. So the Pope made a deal. He would have a religious debate with a member of the Chinese community. If the Chinese win, they could stay. If the Pope wins, the Chinese would leave. The Chinese realized that they had no other choice. So they picked a middle-aged man named Ah Peh to represent them. Ah Peh asked for one condition to be added to the debate. "To make it more interesting", he said, "neither side would be allowed to talk". The Pope agreed.

The day of the great debate came. Ah Peh and the Pope sat opposite each other for a full minute. Then the Pope raised his hand and showed three fingers. Ah Peh looked back at him and raised one finger. The Pope waved his finge rs in a circle around his head. Ah Peh pointed to the ground at where he sat. The Pope pulled out a loaf and a glass of wine. Ah Peh pull out an apple. The Pope stood up and said: "I give up. This man is too good. The Chinese can stay."

An hour later, the cardinals were all around The Pope asking him what happened?. The Pope said, "first I held up three fingers to represent the holy trinity. He responded by holding up one finger to remind me that there was still one God common to both our religions." "Then I waved my finger around me to show him that God was all around us." He responded by pointing to the ground and showing that God was also right here with us." "I pulled out the wine and loaf to show that God absolves all sin. He showed me an apple to remind us of the original sin. He had an answer for everything. What could I do?"

Meanwhile, the Chinese community had crowded around Ah Peh. "What happened?" they asked. "Well," said Ah Peh, "First he indicated to me that all Chinese had 3 days to get out of here. I replied to him f**k off and not one of us was leaving." "Then he pointed that this whole city would be cleared of Chinese. I showed him that we are staying right here." "Yes, and then???" asked the crowd. "I don't know", said Ah Peh, "He took out his lunch, and I took out my lunch too!!!"

This wan taken from ronniefai blog..ahhahaa..sorry ronnie...but it is funny.

Back to 5 years ago...

hahaha..after reading wong's blog.. from his coding..
while (leg != disabled) {
spend_money;travel;have_fun;
try {
age--;
get_money();
}
catch(ageMustAddException)
{ System.out.println("You Are OLD!!!! ADMIT IT"); }
}

hahahaa...modified code from the original code which i think still has few bugs in it and the get_money method is not yet verify. HHHAHAAH... unlike some people which can get money just like that, some people really need to work like dog just to get over 1 week spending. Hmm.. sad huh? life is like that la i guess... and 1 more thing.. CHANG!!! mana blog hamsap engkau!!! haahhaah.. ok.. im crazy now.. studing is proven more stressful than working full time.

Experiance in your life

Hmm.. where should i start. Just passed up my last assignment of the semester and getting ready for second exam. Stress for the upcoming few weeks. Student life isn't that good after all, but compare to others? ITS JUST F$#@$$@ GREAT!!! ahahahhahaha. Ok, update? nothing much really. Life here sucks, study, holiday = working, after that another semester. Hmm.. should enjoy life more while im capable of.hahahaha..as in while i have the time and not tied to some full time job yet.

U really can learnt alot from experiance.. really. Now i come and think of it, back in Kl, Melb and Pg, thats the student life it should be. Sigh..miss old days.. well, life must go on.. and im here now without all my good friends from KL and pg and Melb. ahahahah..lonely life. I don't know what am i writing here.. guess i need some place to release some stress and type some nonsence. Juz make my own ice cream!! real chocolate Ice cream. But too much milk i added.. so abit too sweet. Now im gonna taste my first creation..ahahah..ciaoz

Happy but not happy

ok, theres nothing much to type this but after browsing like most of my friend's blog, decide to do so, keep update this stupid blog. Well, juz passing up my 2 assignments which due today. Programming best skills, not start doing from beginning, but changing from others..lol. Tho i dun know whether will kena cheating or plagiarism, but time constrain really can force people to do illegal stuff. AHAHAHh.

free at last? NO!! thursday having class test, next monday having exam... shitz, no time for myself. Keep busyin whole month. Suppose to passing up another assignment on coming monday as well, but the lecture went back to singapore cause of family problems. Some excuse, all singaporean are the same, boring life, kiasu..HHHAAHHAH. to some who had just went there, good luck.

ok.. time to go back now cause im stuck in this stupid QUT building with spastic computers. Shish... ciaoz.